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bernice
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FINALLY DONE WITH AP's!!!! hellsyea! take that! hahah. ok directed at no one. just happy to look forward to like.. 3 months of fun and relative lack of hw. yay. =) so much shit i've been putting off. imma make that huge collage of NEHS ppls/family/cali friends and hang it up on my wall in college. =) YAYNESS! hahhah damn u gloria for this fobbiness!! gahh. ----------
ok some nice quotes from The Great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzgerald: "For a while these reveries provided an outlet for his imagination; they were a satisfactory hint of the unreality of reality, a promise that the rock of the world was founded securely on a fairy's wing." "He knew that when he kissed this girl, and forever wed his unutterable visions to her perishable breath, his mind would never romp again like the mind of God. So he waited, listening for a moment longer to the tuning fork that had been struck upon a star. Then he kissed her. At his lip's touch she blossomed for him like a flower and the incarnation was complete." bernice
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if u're in 12A, tell me (bernice) if u wanna be in the class pic. for SENIORS: gimme ur advice if we shud have a grade pic. the prob is that we have close to 40 ppl and it'll be hard and a really unclear pic. i think a class pic would be better and then u can swap w/ the other class. |
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Hootie & The Blowfish- Innocence What else can I do when the tears have all been wasted? And the only voice you choose to hear sings the songs of our hearts breaking. Say your dreams, they all have changed. Well, my smiles, they all have faded. And the thoughts that used to seem so pure in my heart, they now feel jaded. Because I wanna feel like I did. And I wanna feel innocence. What else can it be except this pride I'm sick of drinking. Storm clouds all have gone away. Can we stop this thing from sinking? Because I wanna feel like I did. And I wanna feel innocence. And I want you to know, and to feel in your soul, that someone has come and gone. I'm stuck up here with you. I never thought we'd get this high. I used to be afraid of falling. Now I'll spred my wings and I will fly. I wanna feel like I did. And I wanna feel innocence. I wanna feel like I did. Oh, and I wanna feel innocence, oh. I... -----------------------------
innocence.. endings are all approaching too quickly.. bernice
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Hootie & The Blowfish- Innocence | |
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hahaha dying comes up so much (from the song). i mention glor and chau's names a lot too. =P haven't slept well all wk (damn midterms/hw/activities), will go sleep as soon as possible.. bernice
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never saw blue like that- shawn colvin | |
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eternally waiting.. waiting for my financial aid package, waiting for colleges to let me in, waiting for mom to let me go where i want to go, waiting for the tests and the eternal torture to end, waiting for grad trip, waiting for graduation, waiting for prom, waiting for life to get better, waiting for summer, waiting for the good times, waiting for my happiness to come bak, waiting forever.. waiting in this eternal empty void.. waiting.. always waiting bernice PS: listening to duncan sheik sing half life just makes u wanna hug him. i need a boy to love in times like these.
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half-life duncan sheik | |
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j4son22: perchance. bernice4yellow: to sleep, perchance to dream.. j4son22: you're going to bed? HAHAH jeff.. the _____ affect/aftershock.
love/hate relationships with love. how will we ever compare? |
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To love at all is to be vulnerable Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly be broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it up carefully around with hobbies and little luxuries, avoid all entanglements, lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness........... The only place outside heaven where you can be perfectly safe from all dangers of love......is hell. C. S. Lewis stole this from this creepy guy that used to comment on my LJ. hah. it's nice tho. ;) bernice |
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I GOT THE SAME THING AS CHAU AND GLOR!!!!!!!! can u say meant to be?? i think so too!! hahahahah, me and my girls. u guys are TOO awwsm ;) *MUAH* bernice |
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鑑定結果 您的精神年齡24歲 與您實際年齡差7歲 幼稚度48％ 成熟度54％ 老化度19％ i'm so damn old... -_-"
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basically spent obscene amounts of time w/ glor all yesterday afterskool then shopping today cuz SOMEONE couldn't come DT w/ us today (but not her fault. =P) so we went to tiramisu to stalk waiter boy. not there. went to manicure place. no vacancy yet. went to other manicure place. not open. went to find hair place. freaking expensive. went to other hair place. ok price. went bak to manicure place. got freakishly expensive manicure that wasn't worth it and we ruined the nailpolish almost instantly. only good thing. got some shopping done, got cute pic frames, necessities, pants, and musical movies collection for very good price. now i just gotta get ready to die from hw.. again.. grr. bernice PS: saw John Q. ... dood, that is the saddest movie i've like ever seen. ten minutes into it and i wanted to cry. the entire time! but apparently my parents are heartless and didn't feel it at all... -_-" |
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the best thing about htailand wasn't the pretty transvestites, the gorgeous beaches and sunset (actually that was great), the nice albeit scary masssages, the middle aged european men in neon green speedos (...), and so on. i really liked the pattaya hotel despite its semi crappiness for the lounge chairs on the porch, if only they had a view of the ocean!!! but i really liked sitting on that chair and just... chilling w/ my music on. soo nice!! felt so.. breezy and clear headed and like nothing else in the world mattered but this chair i was sitting on and the music playing in my ears. i really miss diong that, felt so comfy i fell asleep on it too! sigh i gotta get me one of those. bernice
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better- jason mraz (the fuckoff song) | |
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first, cat, daph, char, and me all went to sauch's house for sleepover in which we overstuffed outselves w/ yummy food and watched movies till 3am. the nex day we all went dt to shop/eat lunch/watch love actually/eat dinner at tiramisu w/ 10 other girls. we rule!!! then a drink w/ chau, glor, and em. i love the sunglasses w/ my name and sun carved onto it. i hate the creepy guy who stalked us in burger king and came too close for comfort to my fuckin face!! love actually is officially the ultimate romantic comedy!! complete w/ a hot boy (rodrigo santoro *drool*) teehee. dinner was nice cept we were like fucking quaratined from all the lovey dovey couples like we were a fucking disease!!! thank god for the cute waiter. valentine's never really meant much to me before since i never had a proper bf. but this has got to be the greatest valentine i've ever had in my life!! despite the singleness. there shud be a holiday for single ppls!! HURRAH FOR SINGLETONS!!! (pure bridget jones, can't wait for the 2nd one.) haha. another thing. i love my class. sooo damn much it's beyond words. i'm more happy rite now with my life than i can say i was in any other time. cept mebbe wen i was a baby and just eating and sleeping 24/7.... but that doesn't count! and to say to chaussie and fungline and gloria. y'all girls are beautiful, popular, and just plain wonderful people. have more confident in urselves, i love u and a lot of other people do too. be happy. bernice "dig me a shallow grave, so i can feel the rain." good song, not fit for my mood tho.
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it was.. ok. haha. weird stuff happend. i'll just hi-lite sum: 40 year old tourguide made a pass at my 20 year old cousin -_-" was on same group as valen hsu's parents. got massage for the first time in my life.. and a whole lot more than i bargained for. 3 massages in 3 days. during the spa: i got stripped down, put in a gas chamber-like steaming room, then toasted to a crisp, dippe in ice cold water, then got rubbed all over with oil and got felt up by old thai woman. eek. so i got boob raped by my lovely masseus then got steamed with hot herbal medicine crap. saw a VERY drunk guy in hotel at 11pm (he fell in the elevator, like just standing there) the most drunk i've ever seen in my life. got a ruby pendant studded w/ diamonds. got tons of cute stuff. double :) saw transvestites and felt VERY ashamed to call myself female. shot a gun for the first time in my life. rode an elephant for the first time. the most embarassing moment of my life/trip: was getting onto a boat, and these people are on the side taking ur pix rite? but it was raining so i was wearing a hat. and wen i walked by they were all saying "piao-liang" (pretty) in chinese so i was all *smirk* and, being me, i didn't see that metal thingie above my head and banged my freakin head on the damn thing. -_-" ow. and they start laffing their butts off. grr. yes that was thailand. very.. interesting experience. bernice
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MICHIGAN!!!!! MWAHAHAHA. chau, funglin, me, and amy can all be frozen there. teehee. and i KNO chau will be wearing like 10 layers of pants there. mwahahah. hehehe sorries. freezing my ass off and shviering rite now... brrrr. bernice
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bak from... "the relatives." usually, i would bitch about the annoying little cousins, the boring days, the uncomfortable beds, the nasty bathrooms, and the bickering relatives. but u kno wut? it's the last time, and i can put up w/ it. besides, all this shit.. at least it's shit that's a part of my life. there will be the annoying cousins, but there will also be my fave cousin that i can't get enuff of and the yummy food and that tiny shop on the street that i practically grew up on (since i have no proper childhood or place i "grew up") and my very loving grandparents and my weird relatives that love karaokes and plays like a child. i dunno, it was less annoying this time. and i allowed myself to enjoy some of the taiwanese gayness this time. hah. karaoking is kool. took more pix (150) over 5 days. but i missed my bed and bathroom too much we drove home in the traffic for... eh... 6 hrs? hah. felt a lot longer than 5 days. i have come to the conclusion: tw is indeed a shitty place. but u kno wut? i'ts my shitty place that i spent half of my life at, so at least i'ts got the yummy food and cheap crap. taking the good w/ the bad. good that i'm leaving soon tho. this place is prolly only good for visiting, not fit for human habitation. hah, i'm mean. it's cold. damn it's cold. and i got so much hw it's like skool again. got ap calc nex week. so that reduces my "vacation" to uhh... nothing? dammit i hate skool, haunts u even wen u're not there!!! bernice
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lunch at skylark, tom's world, dinner at la mien place + pitcher sized ice cream, mei chu. good times. i have so much love for senior boys. soooo cute wen they sleep. :) and also very glad for getting to kno kevin and gloria this year, it has been the greatest thing that happend to me this semester. too bad one can't last for too long. i never knew boys were so cute wen they sleep. =P girls just like.. *splat* and sleep. i dunno, i'm being weird. it was freezing last nite, 10 C, it's insanity. the effect of rain gently splattering on the windows, mirrored wall, a glass room, 4 boys sound asleep. it does something to u, that moment is just like.. forever. it's sooo precious, and.. maybe, earth did stop turning for one second, and we were frozen in that for an infinity. maybe this world'd just stop in its track--
forever
too many maybes
that we are powerless against.
all we can live for,
is infinite moement
of love. can u ever die from lack of sleep? 4 hrs (separately into 2 hrs/time) and i'm actually ok, energized. actually i shud count it as 37 hrs if add 7 hrs from the nite RITE before skylark wen we played pool, watched two movies, and played scrabble. thanks everyone who went to skylark. it was nice. mad picture taking in 30 hrs. 120 pix to be exact. and a couple of videos. =P moments to be imprinted the memory. bernice PS: yes i changed pix. LJ and Xanga have diff ones. total self-infatuation in a desperate attempt not to study for finals. took a shitload of pix of myself. =P
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took a nap this afternoon, and woke up smiling. how often can u say dat happens? :) watching the olsen twin move: agree w/ chau, they dress well but they're sooooo f*ing ditzy! my god it is unbearable!! anyways, so bak to waking up this afternoon. not having skool tomorrow, i'm happy cuz the last 3 weeks have been a living hell of skool like non-stop. it's insanity!! but... thinking about winter break, my god i will miss all my 2004ers so much!! i really will! sighz, i'm getting so mushy nowadays, getting soft in my old age.. =P wow i'm way too happy for someone who just failed their finals and got hella bad grades (believe me, it's so much worse than "omg, i got a 98!")haha, anyways, shud study if i dun wanna fail the ohter 3 finals. take care all! bernice
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i have realized all the class love has made our class very gay/lesbian all the time. but hey, it's all good rite? =) yes. guys are... grrr.. why do they all go berserk simultaneously?!?! the boys (glor..) act up and be sweet basically to the same beat or something. WTF. people shud call wen they say they will, come wen they say they will, and do things they promised they will!! bernice
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things have been good. i'm liking life tho there's so much hw going on, but hey fuckit. i dun give a damn anymore. :P i would like to say to GLOR that there is so much stuff that i can only talk to u about and i'm glad u're there for me, remember i'll always be there for u too. =) lub. sighs, decisions taking initiative, i will be brave. =) getting to kno u this year's been the greatest. KIT definitely or i will hunt u down!! grr! =) hmm not much to say, finals coming up, yipee. and if we're veryveryvery lucky, CONCERT!!! omg, i can't wait (that is if we can go!!) *fingers crossed* sighs, i lub JON!! u're supersupersuper nice!! muah! ;) bernice
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